This is what happens when you have Peter Chor as DCON Chair. They kill mice, hah kidding (Taken with instagram)
There was more time to do things.
I’m literally going crazy right now trying to sort things in my head.
English Research Paper OutlineResearch PaperStats ProjectSports Med Project- APUSH Survival Guide Project
- Mousetrap Car Report
- Cat Dissection Final
- NHSSM Hour logs
- Key Club DNE stuff
- May+June District Newsletters
- blah blah blah
- Life
TIME. GO. SLOWER.
The theme creator is at the bottom of the page, I just edited it to my liking c:
Ehem, little one?!?!? YOU’RE SMALLER THAN ME
ahahaha, it’s cool. :) I guess I just miss having the company of a committee around. and thanks, it really does mean a lot c’:
Despite the amazing times and experiences I’ve had this past weekend, I can’t neglect that…. awkward feeling I’ve had all weekend as well. District News Editor. ‘Technically’ an executive, but not. Also ‘technically’ a committee chair, but not. My job description just doesn’t really fit me anywhere on board.. Not a LTG, not a Chair nor an Executive. Just…. District News Editor. I know it shouldn’t be something I should worry about, and nonetheless will I do nothing but my best at the position, it just makes me feel…. out of place. I’ve experienced this before, from my home region, and it honestly was what I feared the most last year. .___. I was a committee chair, among ltg’s, again perceived as ‘that other guy’. No one important really, just another person that we can’t help but be on our region board. Despite my cheerful and overly outgoing self, I can’t deny the fact of how horrible I felt last year, being left out of everything else going on around me. And now I just feel like history is repeating itself, with this position. At least when I was a committee chair, I had a committee that I felt comfortable with and was with during board meetings, but now, I’m just a wild card on board. I attend committee leadership calls, but have no committee to update about. I fill out an executive mrf, but half the duties on it don’t pertain to me. Oh and did I mention, this whole weekend was awkward. I attended a committee leadership meeting, but 80% of topics discussed didn’t pertain to me. I ended up sitting up front during training, but didn’t stand when executives did presentations and activities. And what sucked the most, committee pictures on Sunday morning. All the committees gathering for photos, executives taking pictures for themselves as well, as I sat alone waiting for the board meeting to start. .___. Awkwardly, alone.. I know it shouldn’t really matter to me, but it honestly makes me feel like I belong nowhere. It made me feel bad about myself.. Though I consistently kept a bright face, deep down, I was alone, sad. I guess in the process, I did learn more about myself. Despite from spiders, I also fear neglect, and being out of place. Oh well, nothing I can really do about it now. I am, though, looking forward to being reunited once again with the rest of the board, just not the training much I guess.. Just one more year, Mark, then you can go graduate and be happy. Sigh, just one more year. Think positive .___.
Tag(s): #feelings
I’m not going to lie, I first had my doubts about this weekend. After being part of arguably one of the greatest network of friends I call my family, separating from the fact that the ‘MVBees’ time to shine is over. Being appointed to the new 12-13’ District Board once again excited me, but at the same time, I feared being part of a new group of people. After the closest bond I’ve ever received from a group of people I only see 4-5 times a year, they were some of the most comfortable people I have ever been with. But sooner or later, I had to let that go, and open myself to new experiences. On Friday May 25th, I was anticipating to meet the new board, but at the same time, feared those usual “what if they don’t like me” thoughts in my head. I guess I sort of assumed to soon. After the whole experience of the weekend, integrating into a newer and even bigger family was just fine. I felt that instant connection between people that I never even knew until I met them face to face. And now, we talk like we’ve known each other for years on Facebook. I would really like to thank everyone on the 12-13 board for making me feel feel included. I know I may not show it on the outside (because I’m arguably the biggest loud mouth in the world), but deep down, it really is sometimes very hard for me to make friends. Even though it’s only been May Board, and it may be too early for me to assume, I am really excited for what the rest of the year has to offer. I can’t wait for the millions of experiences ahead of us, InfiniBEEs!
